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We made our boss cry today

She’s not really our boss, she’s more like our mom. We have worked with her for three years. Three years of her dealing with our shenanigans. Three years of us passing out on the couch in her office. Three years of us telling her everything about our lives. Three years of her being there for us no matter what.

I felt like I had to give back so I arranged all of the seniors who have worked with her and we all sang “Don’t Stop Believing” for her. At each stanza, a different one of us came in and lipsynced their heart out. We each came in with a single rose for her. In the end, we told her that we loved her. It wasn’t enough to fully show how much she means to us. But it was a great start. It was the first time I ever saw her cry. The first time that I really think we all realized how much we mean to her. I’ll never forget her

Hehehe she realized

Yeah we’re cool cats

"So for the last year or so my seniors have often called me Mama J. It bugged me cuz I took it as if they thought I was old enough to be their mom, but after prom, lock-in, and church today and seeing their actions around me-I’m realizing that it is probably the biggest compliment they could ever pay me."

- My ~~Boss~~ Second Mother finally realizing how much we love her

One of my favorite pictures of the most magical night of my life

I’m a stem cell! If we teach for 3 years, we each get a microbe that our boss thinks defines us. She said I was a stem cell because whenever I am needed, I change myself into whatever role I need to fill. She does love me :)

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PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE OF GAYS DESTROYING THE SANCTITY OF MARRIAGE AND FAMILY.

THEY ARE TRYING TO TAKE OVER.

My life goal. They are my role models

Staying with my promise though

I promised I wouldn’t just brush things off and that’s exactly what I plan on doing. I will not let this phase me. I will not dwell in this. I will stand up. Walk away. Move on. And make myself happy. Only I can help myself at this point and thats exactly what I plan on doing. Holding grudges is just a waste of time anyway. Time to have fun and make the most out of this year

Okay, taking a friend’s advice

I promise to stay optimistic about all things at least until the end of this year. I will have faith in myself and take chances. If things go wrong, I’ll just brush them off and look for new sources of happiness.

Hey you,

I know that you probably won’t read this. I guess we’re different like that. I still keep tabs on you. Yes, I creep on your Tumblr, I mean, you can creep on mine too. Neither of us has changed our url’s. Idk, I guess I never stopped caring. Never stopped wishing we’d talk again. Seeing you down the hallway today walking towards us made my heart stop.

Truth is, I miss you. A lot. After today, I realized that really nothing has changed. You distracted me. You kept me sane. I didn’t even think of him much when I was with you. Watching you talk about something you know and care so much about made me fall for you again. Even if it was something as strange as Horticulture. I mean, I even slightly wanted to look more into it because of how you talked about it.

I miss you. I miss the carefree nature of our relationship. I miss the feeling of just being in the same room and knowing that we were meant for each other. I miss the feeling of not having to talk every day and still knowing we loved each other. I miss our phone conversations until 5 am. I miss our possible wedding plans. I miss how easy it was to talk to you about the future. Even if it was something like how our house would be and where our children would play.

Seeing you today honestly made my semester. I miss you so much. Even though we barely talk anymore. Every time you said anything, I found myself with a stupid grin on my face. Anytime you randomly showed us useless crap at the college, I found myself with a stupid grin. Even just seeing you sit on your desk like old times. Seeing you in the exact outfit you were wearing last time you visited me while we were together. Seeing the funny sandals that you still wear. Just everything about you makes me smile.

Driving away, I teared up. I didn’t want it to end. I didn’t want to say goodbye again. It took every ounce of will in my body to not run and hug you right there. To have you hold me again. To feel whole again.

You know what? I miss you, but I’m happy. Why? Because I see how happy you are there. I see how carefree you still are. I see how at peace you are. I honestly could not have wished for anything more than to see you happy.

We don’t talk anymore, but you know what? I’m going to change that. I don’t care, I miss you. I’m not afraid to admit it anymore. I miss you so much. You changed my life. You gave me hope in love. When I lost you, nothing was ever the same. I saw myself as a cynic with you. I hope you know, I broke up with you because I couldn’t stand seeing you hurt. I couldn’t stand seeing you miss me as much as you did. I couldn’t stand missing you as much as I did. I knew that we had to let each other go. For both of our sakes, we had to break up. But honestly, I still hope that we will end up together.

I love you and I always will.

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We made our boss cry today

Staying with my promise though

Okay, taking a friend’s advice

Hey you,